Thoughts

Here My Thoughts Lie To Die

Thoughts. They are such a weird thing if you think about it. Like where does it come from? How do they get inside your mind? How are we capable of putting them together. And if we didn't know any language how would they form in our heads? I know mine speaks to me in English, but if I didn't know a language, what would be forming in my head instead? How about babies? How do thoughts go through their heads? Wow, this concept became more complex than the original idea. I was merely supposed to put this paragraph here to talk about putting my thoughts on this page. Welp, here we are. Hopefully there will be more to come. I am one to get distracted easily, so hopefully this is the place I go to exert my energy.

8/3/2020 - Don't date your blog or you date yourself.

I chuckled as I typed the title. At first, it seemed profound, like "Yeah, don't put a date on that or people will know the date you wrote that blog." Then the other childish side of me kicked in and thought "Yeah, if you start taking your blog out on a date, you'll be dating yourself." Which, metaphorically speaking, holds some truth, if not all the truth. But I digress. This is the first thought that came to my mind when I started because I remember someone saying that you want to stay relevant, you want to stay hip and on top of it. But for the moment, I think dating your writing is crucial. The reason is as you progress as a human, things change. Not only are you aging, but your mind changes, your thoughts changes, the things you believe change, your perspective changes. The things you once found funny can later down the line be abhorrent to you. The words you thought you were using correctly becomes corrected and your beliefs shifts. Or at least, that's what it has felt like for me. Furthermore, dating things allows you to have a foundation of where you started and how far you have become. Dates, times, and the cycle of the world is constantly changing, so why should we as humans be expected to be so constant? Even metals rust and plastics eventually erode away as time moves, so should allowed our thoughts. So yeah, that's what I'm prefacing this with.

I think there is an interesting collection of events happening. I think people out to get other people for what they did in the past is getting a bit out of hand. If one committed a heinous crime and got away with it and it now surfaced, yeah, I can see the reason for arresting them and making they pay their time. But for simple growing pains and mistakes that weren't truly thought through because we were naive and unaware of possible ramifications of our actions in the future to a culture that will have change so much is like constantly telling people they should have known about their mistakes before they made them. I feel like this misses the true point of being a human. If we knew how everything is going to turn out then we obviously would have chosen the best routes. It's not like we're all Dr. Strange and can predict all millions of possibilities and know which route is the best. Shit, I can barely come up with three potential outcomes. And even to think about it to that degree, we would be living life at a much slower pace. Which is fine, but with our society's pace, it's hard to keep up. For example, the concept that doing something involving alcohol and being reckless is more acceptable in our 20s than our 30s and 40s, so subconsciously, we opt to do all those things as expected of us. Furthermore, if we truly sat down and thought of all our outcomes, there is a possibility we will choose similar outcomes regardless because of our mindset holding pattern at that time. Aka, if I think my life is going down the toilets, no matter what outcome I pick, it will go down the toilet, thus we pick flush-able decisions. On the other hand, if we fear everything, all our decisions will be based on the safe end of the spectrum and we will only experience life from the side lines. Regardless of the mindset, it's the spontaneous decisions that we make that can allow us to experience life beyond the path that we are on. It is those moments that allow us to see what is on the other side. And sometimes, it is the moments that come back and bite us in the ass later. But that is the point of life isn't it? To experience it a little bit different than our usual without having people digging it up later down the line and forcing us to apologize for our old naive self? Isn't it our history and past experiences that makes us who we are today? Is it not those moments of "Oh shit, that wasn't a good idea," for us to realize in the future to not repeat it? So with that being said, why yes, I am going to date my blog. So someday when I sit down and read what I wrote I could be like "Hell, look at what I thought then and what I thought now, how the times have changed."